My Spiritual Ego - Morning pages einer Erwachenden

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  Coming home after what’s been almost two years, making me feel lost, out of space, in a matrix like I’ve arrived in the wrong world. A cold one. One that’s dark, fast, disconnected as I am. Starting with hours of delay in tears in this artificial lights of shopping mall vibes, I sit and can barely breathe. My view getting blurry from my tears. My heart can barely take it. I’m shaking in agony, pain. I want to vanish. Barely have I felt such yearning. I want to go back. To that warm place that I’ve spent over half a year. A place that despite all  pain made me feel like I was ok. Like I was held in space and time no matter what. Even throughout the last months of heartbreak, of overwhelming suffering from what I thought would be love, I would feel Mother Earth holding me, curing me. I was healing, deeply connected. Growing beyond what I knew I was capable of in the darkest place of having been abandoned, mistreated, used and thrown away multiple times; I would feel my heart e...