Don't wake the sleeping Souls

In this piece I would like to share story behind the name of my blog. 

As I just recently discovered all the Good I thought I was bringing into this world was at times something else. As I was going around half my life, especially the past months, believing I was doing my very best to be the best version of myself that I knew helping people in any way I could think of, supporting them, caring for them, I was most of the time really only serving someone else....My spiritual Ego as Eckhart Tolle called it. When he explained that specific version of Ego all on a sudden I could feel the resonance inside of me instantly and I knew it was my Ego getting caught, getting uncovered. I felt like someone put a flashlight right into my eyes when I have been hiding in the dark for a very long time.

I think we all know these moments when suddenly a realisation comes through to us. Either externally or from our deepest Selfs. In this moment I understood something fundamental inside of me. My true self, my consciousness. Sequences of the past months were flashing before my eyes. Moments of misunderstandings, arguments, painful discussions that occurred over and over again in the same pattern and I could not really get through to the essence of what it was reflecting of me. What part my own pain was when I really just wanted to bring my light to others people's lives when they were struggling with theirs. My intentions were good. And not only that. Also all this precious knowledge of mine about self-growth, coaching, transformational therapy, Buddhism and so on I had accumulated over the months were good. Not just for me, for everyone. That, I was convinced of.

If Alan Watts was still alive (may he be safe at home) he might have said...

~"The road to Hell is paved with good intentions"
“The reason you want to be better is the reason you aren't” ~

There is a gigantic difference between good intentions and good virtue. When you look at good intentions your focus clearly is on the outcome which then may be quite the opposite of what you had intended in the first place which makes the whole thing a confusing paradox. What's the place our “good intentions” are coming from? Do you know the answer?

Good virtue on the other hand listens, observes, watches, is present, is there.

“A person with good intention looks to change the outside. A person with good virtue looks within.”

Now for me to realise this got me a good step closer to my true being and especially the meaning of it.

A beautiful soul that has only recently luckily for me entered my life has drawn me a wonderful picture for that issue of mine to support me remembering this true virtue. To not let my ego overstep in times I feel I want to “help”.

He said to me: “This path of life is an individual one for each and every person and it is very different and therefore special for each and everyone. When you try to show people something they are not ready to see or face you rob them. You rob them of their own path. You become a thief of their own personal experience. Every person has their own time and their own pace on their path of awakening.

Imagine you were sleeping in a big magical cosy hut with many other people. The hut is beautifully furnished with sparkling colourful tiles all over the walls, fresh green plants are all around like a fertile oasis. There are many rooms big and small for sleeping, eating and drinking, playing, any desire you may have. This place is everything you know. The hut stands somewhere in the most beautiful nature between the mountains which peaks are covered with bright white snow that's sparkling in the sunlight. Waterfalls are flowing out of the rocks. The hut is surrounded by the greenest meadows earth has ever seen covered by the most outstanding coloured flowers and trees bearing all sorts of exotic fruits you could ever imagine. It's a place were dreams come true. Literally. The place might as well be God's garden (Everyone who's ever been in Georgia might have a tiny idea of what it may look like...)

So it happens that you were the first one to wake up early in the morning before day break. You had an amazing night of sleep with all kinds of miraculous moving dreams.

Imagine this place. What do you do? 

You could for example get out of bed, make yourself a coffee, eat a banana, go outside, take a little walk,  maybe even see the miracle of the sunrise behind the mountains reflecting up into that clear water of the lake become the witness of a new day coming into existence.

Or maybe you just sit outside and smell the fresh, clear morning air starting to wake up. Really it doesn't matter what you do, BUT what you don't do is....Yes exactly. Wake everybody else up who is still sleeping.

We all know how it feels being woken up to early when we were in the middle of our sleep, even worse in the middle of a dream we wanted to finish dreaming. This can be very frustrating and even painful. Certainly it is not a pleasure to be woken up by someone without being asked to.

But again...this is exactly how it might feel when we step up into someone's life with good intentions trying to wake this person up. At least this is what I remember doing. And yes I can see now that this was overstepping personal borders under the name (cover) of meaning well. Well, I am now on my path to good virtue. Let's see how that goes.

Namaste