My Spiritual Ego - Morning pages einer Erwachenden

The air pack. Giving space to breathe, to balance, to equalize merging. The Libra and the Gemini. Waking up, giggling like a child, he’s softly kissing my eyelids as every morning, before I open them up to the bright daylight. Holding my face in his hands smiling at me: “Good morning my Goddess”.   I found love in this hopeless place. “I am so much in love with you. I would fight the world for you. You’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. Truly. I am so much in love with you. If this is not love, I don’t believe in it”. His words clear and free of doubt as his heart.  My inner child out of control, I cry, I yell, I make a fuss. I’m burning in anger for nothing, raging. He’s beside me, trying to calm me, serve my needs, hold me in my pain. I don’t let him. I push him away; my rage becoming more powerful. More uncontrollable. I want to stop. I can’t.   I’m furious and hurt. I’m hurt for hurting him, I turn my disappointment, my pain towards myself. “I w...

Seven years of Love. Yes I want to love you. LINA. Nepal. 2020. I’m in that cycle. He makes me aware.  Nepal. 2022. The circle slowly coming to close. He’s next to me. Smiling his soft, pure smile. My love. The purest. The most beautiful one. Catching me. In the fairy forest. Where the magic is home. Where the halo around my head already closed the circle. I had already met him, only I wasn’t aware until I returned to the place where I was told. He was aware. Brightly, sharply from the first time he looked into my eyes.   Lina your heart is beating too loud. Listen to it.  It’s been two weeks. I can’t read, I can’t write, I’m unable to articulate myself, detached from the rest of the world, love struck.   Darkness. Lights are turning off. Only the far away little twinkles across the river know the truth. He’s touching my leg. He’s here. With me. For now and forever.   Freedom. Freedom for Love. Our love.    Growing from the first day int...