My Spiritual Ego - Morning pages einer Erwachenden

I haven’t seen my friend for 2 years 🧘🏽‍♀️super summer surprise. Welcome home 🇦🇱 Lina. 11:11. What can I say it remains the time of the day no matter what. I’m at the river, late morning hours, the sun strong out again as every day now. Finding my friend down the shore as expected. I dive into my sweet little water cave. The perfect cooling spot in the shade, sitting in the smooth sand that will serve me as a mud peeling later on, meditating, refreshing, view on the rock and the green mountains. I could go into this routine every morning. Covering myself in the mud, my skin becoming soft, cooling down to a point that I start to feel a bit cold. Says the person sleeping with two blankets in 35 degrees. He’s laughing.  But this won’t be the only activity for today. When I return, eating, drinking, refreshed to the bones, the whole group is getting ready to search for the magical black eye that had appeared in front of me the first day from the top when I was missing it two year...

Sitting in what reminds me of the Marshrutkas of my next favorite Sakartvelo. Georgia. The small busses going in between the cities in these small mountain countries. Exactly two years ago I find myself in the same spot on a motorbike on the back of a new pickup. This time in opposite direction. Back to home. The camping, move love and sweet mother of choice. Two years. And here I am again being picked up first late night from the airport to make sure I’ll get to my host safely and dropped only 12 hours later at the bus to my focus destination. My focus of so many months… slowly leaving the city after arranging the necessities, running my errands in the first half of the day, the sun already more than bearable. Finally getting to a phone shop, getting my new Sim, I cannot believe what I see. Your pin is: 1111. I look at the time and my foot. Triple synchronicity. 11:11. Who believes in coincidences? I sure do not. My traveling souls with me, our three year anniversary. Two years ago ri...

 Leaving A I also seem to leave a hole behind. Like the first time when I left my first love on the way out.  Sitting on the balcony the coffee in my hand I read her message. Tears running down my face, I’m so touched. For me you are such a special and important friend for me. I miss you and yesterday right after you were gone my energy left me. Now I sit here in my routine daily life, somehow a feeling of loneliness, thoughts about what will be, negativity. Alongside it’s just easier to fight together than alone and to spend the days by myself. Thank you for cooking daily, getting groceries and for being there. It was nice knowing that there was someone waiting for me coming home. I already miss you. No Lina who’s living in the room behind the bathroom. A little feeling of emptiness right now. I hope we will see each other soon again. I’m always there for you even if delayed. ❤️ I will never be able to grasp how lucky I am having such wonderful souls in my life who inspire me...

Going to Schwarzwald Fairy Forest and back. Being picked by A, a little reunion in perfect timing I find her waiting outside, not knowing she’s been next to me all along. Spending a wonderful day in the forest we drive back to her home, crossing the border in the evening sun. The next family. Are you going back to Berlin? Apparently going around the triangle makes more than one person assume I’m going backwards. I don’t like the feeling, trying not to get irritated or agitated by the assumption. It’s triggering me. I’m not going anywhere near that place again. Not any time soon anyways. I’m only waiting to see Her. After more than a year, reuniting in Her home. The next family house. It will be more than a week. For this time I will have to keep my focus. Enjoy my time with A in this incredible nature that I’ve always wanted to explore. The German Fairy Forest.  To Schwarzwald and back oder so. Finally in the right one. Not only train but wagon with only a delay of going back and ...