My Spiritual Ego - Morning pages einer Erwachenden

A return from different worlds. Quiet worlds. The world of nature and mountains. The worlds inside our mind. Returning having moved forward. 12 days of separation since we’ve started our journey together two months before. Flying in to a new country, the country of kindness, compassion, transformative love and meditation. Welcoming us from the first moment with open arms, separating us the same only a few moments later when she walks into silence and I make my journey into the Himalayas. Two weeks have passed since then. Both on our separate journeys. When she finally calls me the first morning after my returning from the mountains. I was looking forward to this moment so much. I missed sharing things with her. My experiences, my thoughts, my encounters and learnings. My moments of light and struggle. I missed hearing her side. Our sharing. I am so curious her return from the journey inside herself. What she’s faced and who she brought along. So much excitement in our first exchanges o...

The snow peak mountains rising above me majestically. Out of the darkness into the dusk into the day. The sun slowly rising behind the top showing her beautiful excitedly awaited face. The people shout out of amazement, tears start splashing out my eyes, rolling down my icy cold cheeks. This is my life. The Himalayas in winter, the atmosphere magical. The different shades of the mountain layers completing the scenery in front of me. Tourists, travelers. Coming here only to see this. Once in their life. I just come here casually because it was nearby where I came from. Not making much of a fuss where I would go, standing up here at 6 am in 3210m height with a cup of coffee in my hands that a guide bought me because I didn’t bring money. I brought nothing but myself in these early morning hours. My friend handing me the money for the entrance that I’d pay on my way down.   All these astonished faces when I tell them that this is how I live. Questions raining over me of how I’m doing ...