Beginning of the Journey: From Berlin to Balingen with Zora

As I have been accompanied until the last minute I was leaving Berlin by my beautiful friends and my family naturally also my start into this new part of my life couldn't have been any more ... I'm my missing words. Ideal, full, perfect, touching, fulfilling, just as it needed to be. Seems I can barely find my language for the moment for one because I am so tired from all the impressions and my mind trying to grasp what's been happening the past days and two because I have been so overwhelmed by all this love that keeps following me in a way that I also could have never imagined. It is already so much bigger, growing by the day that I can't seem to be able to fully connect to all this at the moment...And just for that part I am so deeply grateful already that it is hard for me to find the right words right now.

From where I took off I had all the support of my loving brother, mom, her boyfriend and of course my incredible loving, caring dad helping me move all my things around to my mom's place, my dad's place and my friends' places all day on Sunday. I got to spend my last hours with my good friend Hanni who I love so much, who baked cookies and made a personal playlist for me before my dad picked us up to make a stop at my amazingly encouraging life changing coach friend who I love in a way that is very unique since he has found a way to show me real true unconditional love for myself and others and help me understand and see what life is about....house I wanted to say but the sentence became to long by wanting to express my love for him. So he made sure while holding back his tears that I will go with my chin up high, in love that he will always be with me, watch me, take care of me and also have me back...The day became very heartfelt if this is really the word even but I am still not able to process all the love that I received the last hours in Berlin. From there it took another few minutes to say bye to my Hanni, for my dad to finally take me over to my friend Darshika's house who had cooked a wonderful meal. I think I don't need to mention how it felt saying bye to my dad, my love and best friend when he gave me a last jar of his incredible uncomparable home made cheese cream and his notorious cinnamon liquor to carry with me.

As I was lucky enough to be able to spend my last night with a good friend having me wave good bye at the elevator the next morning I could make my way to the station feeling more loved, more cared for, more save than I have ever before in my entire life. I will again not be able to express in what way this is impacting my whole being I just know I am in a better place than I could have ever imagined. Physically, mentally and geographically finally feeling what it means being loved unconditionally, always no matter who I am or what I do.

With this preparation virtually accompanied in each step by amazing Vera and followed by many other people from all over the world who would be there with me through all kinds of channels sending me their love, encouragement and care I got to the vehicle that would bring me to my first destination. Ludwigsburg in Southern Germany. Arriving at the car I could already see that my driver Omega was an awesome, fun person who I could get along with easily during the long ride as well as with all the other passengers who were mixed from backgrounds, stories and opinions and at the same time all the same when we entered meaningful conversations about life, philosophy, spirituality, human nature and our dreams of life. Switching places and seats I would spend a good other part singing in the front seat together with Omega's wonderful old school playlist, laughing, talking, crying.

I thought I couldn't have wished for more when it became clear to me that I most likely would miss my train due to different detours because Omega was eager to care for everyone to arrive exactly where they needed to be. When...in the last minutes his whole motivation would rise up, combine not giving up, racing to make sure I would not be the last one to not get where I needed to be in time. He would not accept me holding him back from doing so. With a passion from his heart he tried everything possible already when the clock said that I had missed my train by 2 minutes to get to the station saying it wasn't over to not give up before we have actually arrived there while the others kept checking their apps on the phone, in the last minute finding that the train did have 5 more minutes of delay so when I jumped out of the car with him putting my backpack on motivating me to run, the others waving, cheering me on I would arrive just the second that the train rolled into the station. 

I couldn't believe it standing there, my heart pounding, my friend Zora at home waiting for me to come having cooked dinner, entering the train. The next two hours I was just singing, walking up and down the train, answering more love messages, being in my first flow of travelling...Naturally when I had to change trains the other train waited for me so my lovely Zora could punctually pick me up at the station when I got out into the snow falling from the night sky.

I finally arrived, happy, tired and fulfilled after my 10 hour journey. One big first day closing off with beautiful conversations with a friend I love, a warm meal, a warm house, a warm hug and a warm heart that took me right into a deep warm sleep that I needed so much.

And what can I say...Now I am sitting here, and just this second that I wrote "sitting" she pours me glass of red wine from Apulia (where I most likely will go next week with my friend Vera) while she's been cooking some Italian meal for the past hour making sure I can sit here on her laptop writing these lines in a big arm chair with the view on the mountains out the window relaxing from this first amazing hike today. 

Even in these minutes there is no stop to all this happiness being poured over me...from this morning opening my eyes to the mountain view, listening to this beautiful loving message from Maritreyo who I am so excited to finally hopefully meet the day after tomorrow, I would leave my room to Zora making coffee and tea for us me hugging me good morning.

Searching for a hike for the two of us while having breakfast, I still tried to connect to everything that has been happening. Preparing for our 10 km winter hike, making sandwiches, getting dressed I had to think about our trips together last summer.

And so we spent the first day thanks to her brilliant preparation hiking in the beautiful woods in snow, sun and wind through beautiful wild nature that offered us all kinds of different plants and animals ending up feeding deers. Moving through seasons and sights.

Finishing off this beautiful first day with her extra tasty Italian egg plant meal with tomatoes, garlic and a kind of pasta I don't even know the name of topped off with buffalo mozzarella decorated with a basil leaf accompanied by a glass of tasty red wine. 

Both exhausted, happy and full we are now laying down hopefully getting another wonderful night of sleep feeling grateful, loved, out of space, somewhere in between and to the fullest in the right place, curious what there is yet to come...

With a big smile, heavy legs, a full stomach and a cup of ginger lemon manuka tea this is my good night for today.