BERLIN - My Anchor

 Leaving comes into reachable distance. A week from now things will be packed. I find this hard to realize. I don't think I can feel yet what I am getting into and especially that it means that I leave a whole lot of people that I love behind. Really love. Especially my family. I can feel the vibe of leaving the city I was born in, raised in, went to Kindergarten and school in, laughing, crying, growing up, living through all sorts of stories happy exciting and painful sad. Everything has happened in this city for me (except for a few years away). This is my home. Berlin. I think I don't always realize what this means for my heart when I have been planning on leaving because I find the big city annoying with all its individualistic self-centered people in it.

But it is not only that. Not at all for me. I have all my life evolving around this city. All my heart, my friends, my family, all of them, my home, my support, the streets that I know so well that I don't even notice anymore or look around. Berlin is not only some noisy dirty place I'm leaving full of hipster wannabes, bars, clubs, cafés, museums, theatres, a large extraordinary artistic scene, music, the best food from all over the world. A safe space for people who got lost in the world to return back to themselves. A light. A party scene, a home. My Home.

It is my safe space and for all I know My Anchor.

Sometimes we overlook the "little" things that are right in front of us every single day and take them for granted. Well I know I do. Instead these are things that usually give us the most stability, support and security. I know for me it is my family. I do feel extremely lucky to have such a caring, supportive family who loves me to death with all they have to give and also show it as much as they can in their capacity. I do feel like the most blessed person having them around me at all times being there for me no matter what. I still think I don't appreciate enough at times for what that really means feeling this gratitude of being cared for as a child even at the age of 32. This is such an incredible warm feeling in my heart, such a privilege being able to feel as safe as a child, knowing at all times if I fall I will be caught by my mom, dad, brother, cousin. It makes my heart melt being so overly blessed by the Universe. It just makes me the richest and happiest person in the world having the biggest freedom and privilege in the world of being able to fully unfold in who I am, what I do, wherever I do it, at whatever time I do it and at the same time not being alone in it but in opposite. Knowing that I have all the support one can have by the love of my family and friends in whatever I choose to do and whoever I decide to be. Supporting me, seeing me, strengthening me, giving me a wake up call when I'm deeply asleep, mirror me, are part of my journey mentally and physically. My soul mates I want to say, more than just my friends who are spread all over the planet welcoming me in their places, in the world with open arms. Taking part of my journey, giving me company, coming along the way into the mountains, the forests, to the lakes and into the world with me. I feel like an angel accompanied by the most loving souls, at exactly the right time, in exactly the right place to make my life even richer, abundant, overflowing with love. There is nothing more I could ever wish for in this life. I have it all and yet there is even more to come. I was given this huge opportunity, this gift of life to use it as I choose to. It is a true miracle to me. It is so big that I can't even begin to grasp the idea of what is still to come. It just fills me with excitement, gratitude and the deepest humbleness for this life and the Universe. Such a treasure. I wish to use it in a way that I feel the purpose, my purpose in it and this journey has already begun and I cannot wait to keep going forward in it. 

To Life. To the Now. The Everlasting Now.