Synchronization in its most beautiful Colors
Getting back I would prepare a wonderful chickpea salad with all kinds of spices, tomatoes and lettuce, eating the leftover sweet potatoe fries with onions, talking to my beloved friend Hanni at home for over 2 hours when again the most beautiful sunset would arise. Or the other way around the sun decided to close off that wonderful active self-loving day in its most amazing colours showing off all shades of red, pink, yellow, gold, orange, rose, purple, violet I could ever imagine, not just lightening up the sky but all the surrounding, reflecting in the water coloring even the air that I breathed in this warm, protective light, settling down. Breathtaking, astonishing, stunning...No words for how nature takes away my breath every time...Getting me back to the truth of life, letting me become humble again about all the things I have when I feel the urge of being somewhere else or doing something else or being with somebody else.
I call this the Magic of New Beginnings. Well beginnings are usually new. So this is what I wrote about it on the shore yesterday:
I just thought back about the past (first) week of my travels, how I started my journey and how each and every minute and any step seemed so exciting, so happy, so worthy, so full of life, the Flow of life being inside of me at all times, staying with me everywhere. Singing, dancing, running, jumping. Anything I saw or did, any place I was at, any conversation I had, each person I met seemed like a big enlightment, being in my higher self, the most beautiful moment there could ever be, that I could ever experience, the most precious situation I could have ever imagined. Everything would be a perfect bliss in any place, whole and complete in itself, intrinsically like there was never space for anything else to appear in my life but these exact happenings, solely by being lived by me. That's what made them flawless, perfect in every way. My dream, my journey, my mindset, my view.
Spending a few days in Basel, beautiful, comfortable, days with amazing people, anything I could wish for, a more comfortable home than I had in Berlin, being provided for with more than I could ever need... Still another feeling arose. Restlessness. I know Basel well enough from last year, I do not have the urge to go and explore new places here every day, I don't meet new people all the time, part of what makes the excitement slowly fading away throughout the day which makes sense and at the same time does not at all because this is what creates the other side which is: Another Home. I have another place that gives me the feeling of home, besides my city of birth and that, I have to say is way exciting as well, just it feels differently. This place has everything to offer for my spiritual growth if I just learn to stop grabbing, grasping, craving and let go of the urge of needing to be in a different place every single day, discovering something MORE beautiful, MORE exciting, MORE breathtaking. Because this is my ego. Just letting go, slide easy into each day, running, walking, doing yoga, enjoy the sun, reading, writing, going (in)to Rhine river, strolling around..Being with myself. All these things are there just being offered to me without having done anything to achieve them and still sometimes I see my mind wandering off, around to different places, different situations that seem even more appealing to me in my mind. But this is my mind. This is the job of my mind, to show me all kinds of options, let me know what there is out there, speak to me at all times. This will be the case most of the time, only what I need to remind myself of is I can only be in one place at a time. Haha yes this is pure wisdom. I cannot be in different places at the same time as if I didn't know and still my mind will make me feel wanting to go somewhere else, somewhere more interesting perhaps at times. It will try to make me believe that there is a "better" place for me to be at which is a big misunderstanding or misinterpretation of feelings. There never is. There is no such thing than a better place, no matter where we are. It always is at each and every moment exactly the place that we need to be in. Where we are supposed to be. That's a natural law. We cannot even do anything about it. Otherwise we could not be where we are. Because every moment is there for a reason, for a good reason in that we may trust. It could never be anything else than that because that only is another illusion. No matter the circumstances, especially when they are so comfortable as they are now, I wish to learn to trust that every place I'm in, every moment I experience is exactly as it's supposed to be. Because when I'm in that state of mind, fully and truly connected to my heart and therefore to the Universe it is exactly what is. Letting go, feeling, each second as the best there could be, as a blessing of life my urge of moving faster, doing more, seeing more, being more...will not have space anymore.
The magic of beginnings for me lies within this natural fascination of each and every moment perceiving the preciousness, the bliss of life effortlessly in the deepest joy from my heart. The only difference to daily routine life and beginnings is as with all our life our perception, mindset, decision, how I choose to perceive and therefore feel my surrounding, my situation, my journey, each moment. It will always be our decision.
I feel gratitude right now even just having used this state of mind to coming again one step closer to myself, my being in the here and now.
Be.
Here.
Now.
Is the only formular to truly and fully being happy. From Basel with Love.
Me, same day afternoon, after having taken my freezing winter bath in the Rhine being cheered on by my fellow Suisse friends walking by, doing yoga, feeling totally energized, strong, talking to a few friends, exchanging love, taking a walk on the river in the glistening sun, the water sparkling in turquoise clear blue reflecting the cloudless sky, feeling like a radiant angel who was blessed from the very core of the Universe, sending first a voice message to my friend about Felix, who touched my heart so deeply on Friday and my friend telling me that she could understand so well that I would like to get to know him because he sounded so beautifully in contact with himself. Open, brave from his heart connecting in love, communicating from his heart.
Telling her that for me either way I didn't need to necessarily see him again, that anything and everything that shows up in this universe would be good for me because maybe this person was just meant for me to brighten up my day on Friday strengthening my trust in the connection of the Universe and all people and therefore unconditional love, would be the perfect experience for me. For this I would always feel grateful because it was meant to be. For anything else I would not know what's meant to be, it would just be pictures in my head, fiction of my mind. I said whatever the Universe will decide I know will be exactly what's good for me. Walking down this sparkling river to the sound of life itself flowing next to me I sent Felix a message as well telling him that I understand so much how he wants to spend time on his own in the mountains to hear his inner voice again telling him where to go.
Well reading this anyone could probably assume by now what just happened seconds later in full synchronization with the Universe. As soon as I entered the flat, the internet turned back on, Felix wrote, sent me a voice in complete Euphoria about the synchronicity of our messages. When he had listened to the one I had sent him he replied telling me that he was going to Bern tomorrow and that since his friend wasn't at the house until Monday I could come join him and he would take me from there to go hiking, we could spend time and he would be happy to see me.
Even writing this right now it makes me laugh so hard because I could feel this happening already before at the river exactly the way it did. I got that clear sense because why...Because I had let everything go, I am so into my activities here and now, spending the day with all kinds of beautiful things, having planned to go to see my friend in Lausanne tomorrow who is so excited to see me..This of course naturally is the challenge from the Universe to me. Because this is exactly the part that I'm still struggling with every time it happens. Having more than one option both involving people who would love to see me. Really love that part, very good practice from my side. So I carefully try to check the options that would make all parties happy hopefully including myself. And so I did. The car that was supposed to take me to Lausanne will take me to Bern instead and Felix said he will wait for me and take me with him.
Wohoooooooo...Wow the excitement is back. Back it is once I've let it go. That's all it is. The trust. My heart is the exact mirror of the outside right now, shining bright, glittering reflecting, sparkling in happiness and bliss.
May the Universe stay with me that way while I go outside and enjoy a beer with my friend Patrick who asked me to come join him on his walk home along the Rhine..
Could not be happier. Thank you Universe for once again showing off your power which makes it harder each and every time to doubt that there is ever situations that weren't meant to be.
In awe, in gratitude, in love, in humbleness.
Namastē
ME again, 7 hours later, about to go to sleep: Getting up from the couch getting the charger for the laptop, Patrick having come home just this second, saying good night, looking into my eyes, embracing me, in love, in friendship, taking my hand leaving just for a few days, feeling, yes home here and missed. After having this wonderful spring awakening evening with him at the river, talking, drinking beer, feeling this well being, happiness, the rays of summer shining in our faces, enjoying the atmosphere of all kinds of people being outside, lined up for kilometeres at the shore, having picknick, singing, dancing, drinking, wine, beer, Aperol, coke, lemonade, eating pizza, snacks, anything I could ever imagine as if it was the biggest welcome party for the summer that doesn't wanna end just as Patrick said it out loud as well. Feeling like the best vacation I could think of, sitting by the water talking to an attractive young man, openly, easily, completely detached from anything, feeling the vibe of freedom throughout the whole surrounding.
Getting back home in the most fulfilled state of mind not craving anything anymore, Saša was already there in the best mood closing the night (before again having it closed by Patrick's touching good night - I will miss the good night hugs and kisses, whenI don't have people around me) drinking, talking about most fundamental topics again, having the most precious insights of human nature, relationships, love, feelings, connecting deeply, openly, honestly, surprising me once again what's there yet to come, already being in existence. Exchanging our hearts, this really gave me more perspective on life, more valuable learnings and most of all friendship, open hearts. Not only have I been given a home but have I been told I will be missed in just the days that I am planning to leave gives me goosebums, a feeling of deep gratitude, happiness, appreciation, security. Trust and Truth. Being carried. Freely, happily, luckily by these wonderful guys who I had not approached as my home in the first place but turn into the ones being my safe space. I could have not imagined this before and am even the more humbled to be blessed with the opportunity of experiencing this limitless and unforseen generosity. And of course my friend Marie from Lausanne wrote me that she just wanted to see me because she is so grateful for understanding her and that her home is always open for me. Happy, deeply astonished from a place far beyond from what I could explain I will make my way into the world of Dreams.
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