Enjoy the Silence

“I wrote you a poem” he says, just like that. 

And she wondered what made her special.

She knew she just can't settle

Even Exploring enternity was her will

For the answer that was always uphill.

Oneday on her way up she came across

A lake calming her as a sailor coming ashore

After days of Reckless quest with no map

Closing in the gap

As soon as she looked into the water

Widespread water walked her home

Those shifting sighs

Stood still on those deep eyes

The talismanic treasure was immortal

One that even acted as a portal

To the mysteries of her soul

Integrating up everything that is not in whole.

Lina, if millions loved you than I am one of them, and even if only one loved you, then it was me and if no one loved you than know that I am dead. 

Those eyes my world🥺

The way your upper lip lays on the lower giving a pure smile and a sensation deep in my core. 

Magic follows you wherever you go

Making streets,stages and sages your admirers. 

I love this energy of yours that you radiants when you are happy.

May it always keep you so beautiful and lively. 

I found myself often to give up- completely. The skins that my basic existence is all about. 

[…] after a million years it feels like in the real terms in the real sense I’m opening up to someone. It’s good that it came up early […] I ask myself am I really being compassionate, am I really being humble? But you humble me. The emotions that you bring to me, with the patience, with the love, you even came after seeing that I was being such a layman. Still you got back with your patience and conveyed it to me. I know you sense … me… right?! I believe in this perfect divine timing, that’s how things happen and trust me I won’t scare away from this authenticity that you have, even how demanding it is at times because it’s kind of a reflection of me because if it’s scaring me then it’s an experience inside me and I need to work that out because you’re a wise woman. It’s not that I’m just surrendering here, I’m surrendering to your love and my ego, I want it to be shaken, I don’t want to have a set of beliefs that I’m defined by. 

I know that people you love and who love you, they matter so much to you, I know that, and then I sense that she’s not gonna do it every day. See how much patience she has, she’s coming up yet again and what do you think you’re the first one who is just being important to her. She’s seen it all but she’s also seen something that she’s coming up to you. I value all how priceless this is. I know something will come up again right?! But I want you to have my word here: I’m willing to introspect every single time when your authenticity demands me to alter my ego. I’ll do that. I don’t wanna just switch along when things get real, I wanna invest in the real terms it takes me. It takes me to take my skins off, I’m willing to do that because I know it’s all worth it. […] I know why love matters. I know how much it matters to you, to be heard, to be seen to be communicated because you have been in this process for all this time and you’re still here letting me know that…showing me the reflections of myself. How can I just let my ego or my whole conditioning… this shit really doesn’t scare me. Give it all man. It makes me believe. Give it all. Accept to all she has to convey. She’s seen something. If I’m just gonna make excuses like man I’m just a fucking poet or what she’s gonna be gone bro…and then again you gonna wonder, where she’s gone. This is the time when you gotta react no, understand, take these steps towards her. You know maybe I sound insane you know telling you about my introspection but …. Things that I got to realize, that I reflected, these are things that people call once in a lifetime moment. I believe it. I cannot compare you to anyone I’ve met out there. Because you’re walking conscious every day, you’re trying to align the world inside you, you’re trying to align everything, and if I just sense that I just let my ego tell me nah man don’t let her do that or whatever, I wanna surrender these thoughts. I really believe that magic happens to us once, it’s not even magic, it’s one shot, to anything that we have in life and it doesn’t always happen you meet someone on the other side, having the same frequencies, willing to invest their patience, their love, their compassion, their knowledge, their ideas, their wisdom and the things they’ve experienced. I value that, you give me insights. These guys that you’ve told me about you’ve been with, I’d say none of them can claim that they don’t have a thing from you and they still live with it, maybe they suppress it or maybe whatever they’re doing, they haven’t embraced it. Because I know you, you would have invested all that you had. All your understanding and all that you come with, even all your time. So I don’t wanna just limit it to just me being a poet ya, I don’t want any sort of notion, preconception letting me be misguided, I don’t wanna speak for the sake of saying. It’s my word, it’s my promise to you, I’ll give all in this conscious effort to merge with you, to flow with you. And we can only flow together, shipless, the shapes that I’m trying to identify with here, is sometimes maybe too much, I know right?! I don’t wanna do that anymore. I wanna surrender to you with my love, my patience, I wanna surrender to you as someone who sees a lot of potential. Not just for the individual self but for the adventure. I don’t wanna sound selfish, I just wanna be with you because I wanna better myself, nah. I wanna be with you because I see a potential not only in our book writing, but in us coexisting in a manner where this communication, it brings us to a point where I believe we can even walk together, this understanding that we’re growing, not trying to oversay, overdo things but I believe we can build a sense of telepathy. Thanks for listening to me. I will never forget this. I adore you. 

I adore you for your energies, these insecurities and wonderness.  

His words giving me wings to fly as from the first moment I’ve heard them. Feeling his pure heart and intentions at all times. Still. There’s something in the back. These words of love being used in a way that serves as a cover, a protection shield, creating a projection field - on me. Since 

the day we’ve met, full power overflowing words of poetry, superlatives, robbing the words their sacredness, being used on me in every way to paint a picture more beautiful than life itself, a fantasy world, a dream, an escape, his escape, making me his divine queen by his side, not knowing anything about the person next to us. Not who they may be or what they may bring into this bond. I sense danger. I feel him. His fear, his refuge in the words, idealizing himself, me, our connection and the world. 

Promising me his all when there’s so much to learn, to know, to see as for that we have to come with an awareness of our pain to show our all, to be truly seen for who we are; making ourselves vulnerable, the biggest act of courage in the name of love, to open our hearts to be touched. 

Wow  that made me feel you so deep in me. 

Feel fucking enchanted 🌝🌚

“She’s the chosen one” I receive an image with a halo rainbow around the shadow of a woman. I don’t know where it’s coming from. “Reminded you of me?” I ask the stranger. “Yes indeed.🧚‍♀️” he replies. I’m astonished. A fairy.

“Keep shining happy soul..! You’re a rare gem. Keep safe. ✨🌙☀️”

The energies since the morning so strong, circulating around me, combining into the same vibration, moving me to tears, bringing peace to my heart. All this different sources of love offering themselves to me, for me in different yet similar energies, confusing me, distracting me from what I know or feel, finally dissolving into clarity when I know which energies to involve, which guidance to follow. 

My heart becoming calm and easy in the waves of overwhelming words and feelings, making sense of the how, the why, The Who. Different identities, pictures painted for me to find beauty, see pure love to uncover the shades behind them. The fear, the pain, the urge of being recognized, felt and seen. 

A tiny fragment in all of us, connecting us in who we are if we let it be seen and don’t deny it for creating a dreamlike world in which unconditional love is ever flowing but instead integrate our human identity, our shame and pain to genuinely open our soul to create the purest form of love. In honesty instead of delusion about who we wish we were. About where we wish we could be, denying our deepest nature, our longings, our heart altogether. 

Blinded by our own lights, shining them on others to merely become equally blind, calling it love in the highest spheres, praying for it to become true when we didn’t give it a chance to manifest in the first place, trying to hide the dark places inside of us with no awareness for them. Unconsciously as we refuse to shine the light in these places, deeply hoping we could create a fairytale place by pushing them out. Closing the door to never open it. 

The Universe’s energy undeniably powerful moving along the day. In all aspects connecting everyone to me in their vibrations. 

“So are you planning to fall in love with this wonderful man, waking you up singing to you? How is love in travels?” I smile. Yes he’s a gem, a gem as all our encounters are mere mirrors of who we are and who we’re becoming. 

I feel the force, his love and his shadow. I feel love for another person I’ve left behind as well. I can see his face, the depths of his eyes, telling me everything I need to know even when he cannot find the words. I can feel him. Isn’t this the true magic? The trust in me to discover his soul and understand it on the same frequency. The butterfly effect. 

It seems all the words have been causing me more confusion than clarity until I let silence flow into me, interrupting the long undisrupted stream of words from the last days, merging into consent. 

Consent to content. I feel calm. I feel at peace as everything I see, hear and feel is the same. 

Transpersonal purpose. It makes sense.

Lina thank you so much

As you were saying I was seeing your realisations being the  truth', I sense how my illusions take away so much cause you know these illusions were my coping mechanism to what i often defined as the absurdity but was just my shadows and demons.

I wanna do justice to the  authenticity of who I really am and not been layered anymore with conditioning of my coping mechanisms, fears  anxieties, the forcefully buried darked sides and  to do justice to what you really radiants to me through the patience, compassion, wisdom, knowledge, insights, experience and understandings that you unconditionally giving me. 

I can't think of any other way than to jot them down and make myself vulnerable to my own unaddressed and buried states.

From deepest places of heart, soul and  existence. Thank you so much for initiating the breaking of  frozen ice inside of  me. 

You put light to this blockage inside me which makes me feel like I am reborn. 

Mystery she says. That’s what we fall in love with, triggering our deepest longings. 

Mystery He says to me as well. All these days it remains. “Your aura” the theme of the energies, even my dad saying it’s been missed at home. Friday nights. That’s what. A beer. A conversation connecting the mysteries of love, the understanding for each other. Continuously flowing throughout the next days. Endless hours of sharing our stories, our compassion and understanding on the phone until we’re slowly moving into silence. 

I can feel you anytime. I can feel you like a air, hope to meet you, you have strong vibes. Power n love to u. 

It's your aura and the presence which can  move the mighty. ✨

My aura is change. 

Closing a cycle to open up a new one. That’s what my friend who opened the circle two and a half years ago says.

Love, support, positively flowing to me from all sides, giving me all I need for these days. My beautiful spirits with me on my path. 

Enjoy the Silence. 

Will be back in some time.